Unveiled

Grab a hot beverage and snuggle in to read this.. it’s going to be worth it. I promise.

I wrote a post on 11/24 titled “Veiled“. The emotions of writing the blog post haunted me for days which is why I closed down my business for the month of December. I’ve never just taken time to be me or to listen to my inner self. I’ve always made myself so damn busy I wouldn’t have to think about what has happened to me or around me a result of learned behavior from the need to survive abuse as a child. One learns to survive by separating yourself from the abuse (both emotional and physical) to allow your mind to go anywhere else rather than being physically present to what’s happening to you in the moment. It is simply too painful.

This month, I have listened to my inner voices – those of my younger self and all I have been through and have done. I realized have committed random acts of violence against myself so often I wasn’t even recognizing it as such. I call myself “stupid” or “dumbass” when I don’t do something right. I had never realized just how poorly I spoke to myself until this month. I have peeled back so many layers of my emotional onion only to realize the small wounds I saw on the outside were truly much bigger and deeper than I could have ever imagined. My whole life I’ve been very vocal about “not needing someone else’s approval because well, fuck that.” As I sit here typing this I both cringe and chuckle at that statement. Generally, the one thing someone is most vocal about is the one thing they are afraid of, you know the saying “Me thinks thou doth protest too much.”

I am releasing my need for approval from everyone. I have always needed people to like me so I could find self-worth. If I could do or say the right thing, I would receive praise which would allow me feel good about myself. I needed everyone to love me or like what I did so I could love myself. If I felt like someone didn’t love me, then I felt worthless. My fear of this has shown up *HARD* in my life during November and December. The post I wrote in November was proof of that. Unwanted. Unloved. Because I felt that way, I called it to myself. Events played out around me in the last 8 weeks where I called this pain to myself. We don’t realize it at the time, but by constantly thinking any statement of “I am not…” it’s so powerful it calls that darkness to you. It calls it to you so you can examine it and work with it, not wallow in it which is what I was doing.

Who does that?

I’ll tell you who… most of us. We sit in our pain because it’s like the woobie we can’t live without. (Reference to an old movie, Mr. Mom, see the clip here) We developed this blanket of pain we’ve kept with us because we learned to accept it as fact that it just belonged. Perhaps you got your woobie when you were young, perhaps you didn’t acquire it until you were older. Either way, it’s just become a part of us externally and perhaps you feel it physically by either weight gain (this one is me), back pain, neck and shoulder pain or anxiety. I believe by allowing our emotional pain to stay within our auric field it causes energy blockage which then relates to physical pain. Your emotional state is out of balance, therefore your body is not at ease. DIS-EASE.

2020 has given us all reasons to feed into the idea of needing our woobie. We’ve allowed ourselves to sink into our pain and allow the darkness to overtake us. I’ve watched some fairly ugly and horrendous behavior this year. It enhanced our darkness so it could come up, be acknowledged and integrated. End this decade differently than any other decade before. Make a choice right here, right now to be different in 2021.

INTEGRATE your darkness, rather than allowing it to stay outside and separate from yourself like a woobie. No longer allow your fear to keep your authentic-self fractured and in pieces. You deserve to be whole and unveiled to the world like the true piece of art you are! Hug yourself and love yourself completely. Allow the pieces of yourself to come back one by one integrating them slowly. Forgive yourself.

You are so much more than you believe. You are the whisper in the wind, the lava at the core of the earth, as necessary as the water and as fertile as the soil. When you believe it, it will happen.

I know you can do it because I am doing it. I have released the most embarrassing therefore vulnerable piece of myself in this blog post. Clicking the publish button means I am trusting the Universe will allow this blog post to be seen by all those who need to know they are not alone.

I am Maria Michelle Leggett – I am unveiled to the world. Sharing my deepest darkest secret as part of my integrative authenticity.

Damn that feels good.

What is YOUR declaration for 2021? Post it in the comments below! I would love to hear from you

In progress-Dark Night of the Soul

How many times can one person peel back the metaphorical layers of an onion until you get to the sweet spot?

The answer to that is unknown because each soul has created their own layers by their unique experiences. I have spent most of my life pretending to be someone I am not, so I felt loved and accepted. To continue life in this way is holding me back and stopping me from experiencing the true beauty life has to offer.

I experience emotions deeply, more deeply than I would like for anyone to know. I have developed this armor around me with the ideology of being “strong” because this is what I learned by watching the adults around me as I grew up. Every time I have weathered through a storm someone has always said to me “You’re so strong.” I allowed this to become a badge of honor not realizing the full implication those two little words have had on me. The people who said it meant the words as encouragement and sometimes even in awe of the experiences I have had, yet I still smile. Behind this smile lies a tremendous amount of pain. Pain which I have laughed through, smiled through, judged people through and tried to find my way through the world with it. I have held onto it in the form of weight around my body. I use it as a shield and sword to protect me, so no one sees my true vulnerability. I believed that if I showed vulnerability, I was weak and no one wanted a weak daughter, sister, friend, wife, mother.

Why am I writing about this? I am writing about this because there are many women in the world who feel as I do than anyone even realizes. We have always been “too much” of something. For me, I have always been “too loud”, “too smart for your own good”, “too fat”, “too loud” take your fucking pick, someone has said it. I learned to allow their statements to become my truth. Am I too loud? Perhaps, but when I feel happy, I exude happiness. When I feel sad, it drips off me. When I feel anger, it shoots out of me and slimes people. I am working on controlling the last two as it can affect other people and for that I am deeply apologetic.

I am finally at a point where I realize I have been shielding myself from truly feeling the deep pain I have experienced as a way of self-preservation. I am dropping the shield and sword for small periods of time. I am finding myself crying off and on regularly throughout the day. I need to feel this. Each tear I shed is a memory I no longer need to use to protect myself. I see this as the end of Harry Potter 7 when Voldemort is fighting to stay alive. Each of his horcruxes must be destroyed and this is what I am doing. Each painful memory is a piece of my soul I want to integrate back into myself, so I am whole. In the end… when I have released them all my shield and sword will disintegrate as Voldemort did in the end.

All that will be left is the true me. The woman who deserves to live on this planet in love and happiness helping other women find themselves and integrate their own shadows so they can show up just as beautiful as I will when this is over.

Blessed Be the path of every being who chooses to walk this life on Earth. It is not easy, but there are lessons to learn and so many people to love.

In love and peace…
Shelley

Mercury Goes Direct

Mercury Retrograde is finally on its way out and not a moment too soon. It’s been rough for so many people this time around. Computers have crashed, videos have been lost, internet connections have gone down and all of that is just for me! Think about all of the other small business owners who have struggled with this energy.

We are currently in a Full Moon as well as the shadow period of Retrograde. Take time to do some self-care such as salt baths, aura cleansings, rest, meditation… anything that allows you to rest and release the crud which as come through. We want all of it out of our energy and aura so when the new moon comes we are ready for new things to come to us.

What is Mercury Retrograde exactly you ask? I don’t know all of the scientific “stuff” behind it. Here’s what I know… Mercury appears to be moving backwards during retrograde. What happens when things move backwards? You don’t make any progress, right? Right. You need for things to moving forward in order to do well. Mercury is most known for controlling energies of communication and travel. Did your plane get delayed sitting and waiting to be de-iced and you had to run your overweight body through a large airport to catch your connection? No? Ok maybe that was just me… but perhaps your car didn’t start or you got a flat tire but didn’t find anything wrong with the tire. Did you have a huge disagreement with your spouse over something you thought was silly but the big “D” word was thrown around? (I mean divorce not dick LOL)

That. That’s all the lovely Mercury energy you’re experiencing. There’s a period of one to two weeks prior to retrograde, about 3 weeks of retrograde and then another one to two weeks of shadow period when retrograde comes. If Mercury had a menstrual cycle, this would be it! However, we need to keep in mind it only has power over us if we allow it. Can women be cranky during menses? Absolutely, but not all of them. Some are just fine because they refuse to allow their body to determine their mood. And this is where we need to go with it. Be determined to accept responsibility for your own actions. I mean really… Mercury doesn’t need to get all of the blame because you said some things you regret (like the D word).

According to the Farmer’s Almanac the other periods this year are listed below and remember pre- and post energy!

  • June 18 to July 12
  • October 14 to November 3

We now have about a week or two of post-shadow energy depending on what you believe. Me? I’m just ready to move forward except wait… what was that? It’s a full moon. This is releasing energy, no major manifestation just yet. Take this time to release the sh*t that just happened and breathe. Breathe deep and long. Then sigh. As you sigh, release it all..

Namaste!

Photograph by Troy W. Smith – my friend whom I adore.

Simple Salt Scrub

Cleaning up your energy doesn’t have to be as difficult as some would have you believe. It’s not this amazingly complicated process. Nor do you have to believe in metaphysics in order for this to work.

What do you need? Three very simple things!

1. Intention – if you believe it’s going to work, it will. It’s just that simple. Set the intention when you’re making this scrub it’s going to cleanse you of the yucky energy you encountered and you’ll be clean when you’re done.

2. Coconut oil – I use  this brand (I do not get paid for this. I just like sharing.)  Click Here: Island Fresh Coconut Oil Coconut oil is good for your skin as it is a natural antibacterial for your skin as well as anti-inflammatory. It’s also a great carrier oil for essential oils if you should decide to add essential oils. The coconut oil also stops your skin from being dried out while using the salt.

3. Salt – There is a reason Witches use salt on the windows of their homes. It’s the same reason it’s “lucky” to toss salt over your shoulder. Salt represents life and all that’s beautiful in it and it’s such a high vibration it bans heavy energy from coming near you. When salt was first mined it was so expensive to mine only the rich could afford it. Egyptians burned salt in order to clear the energy of bad spirits. Salt also represents the element of earth (hence the saying “salt of the earth”). Pachamama, Gaea or Mother Earth is known to transmute bad energy, purifying it and turning it into food for plants and animals. I am not picky about the salt type. I choose to use pickling salt, but you may use whatever you choose. Click Here: Morton Pickling and Canning Salt

You may add essential oils or crushed herbs as a preference, it is not necessary. If using essential oils, I don’t suggest using more than 6 drops per ounce for a 1% dilution.

You can make any size batch you’d like. Keep a 2:1 ratio, coconut oil to salt. A little education with some simple stuff!

Journal it!

My witchcraft teacher has us journal every day as part of our journey as a witch. I am late to the game at the age of 49, however I am re-remembering so much each time I do more. I always say to myself “Oh I’ll do it tonight.” And then it never happens. I’m stuck between the belief of the physical written record and how important that is for generations to come and not having the time to actually physically write with a pen and paper. I mean I am getting older and my hand starts to hurt from writing because let’s face it… my hands have some arthritis and I’m at a computer most of the day already anyway, why not just do a digital version instead? Why indeed. I deserve to take a few moments out of each day to see where I was, what I did and how I got to where I am. I deserve to see my hard work.

What does re-remember mean? It means I am getting flashbacks from previous lives when I do certain things. When I am making products to sell on this website, I don’t do it alone. I have spirit guides who come in and sometimes it’s just a clear channeling process. The product is made and if the spirit guide didn’t write down what was done, I have no clue how it got made. I’ve learned though, sometimes that product doesn’t need to be made again. It was a one-time deal. I’m learning to go with the flow.

The more I give in to the process of what I am supposed to be doing in life I realize I am supposed to be writing more. I often think “Who in the world wants to hear what I have to say?” Then I remember I have grandchildren. If nothing else, I choose to believe that one day they would like to know what was going on with Mimi. How did Mimi get to where she was? Their parents are only going to tell my story from their point of view. I want them to know it from my point of view as well. I want them to know how much I love them long after I’m gone from the physical world.

I also want to learn more about myself and that’s what my teacher calls it: Know Thyself. So I am going to continue writing on my personal blog (www.marialeggett.com) and on this one for my business. The two blogs will contain completely different information because they are for two different purposes.

I hope you will join me and learn something as you go <3

Blessed Be,

Shelley

Elderberry is the talk of the town

With so many people experiencing the flu right now the entire US is finally finding out about more natural methods to prevent the flu and help deal with the symptoms.

Elderberry is making it’s way into the limelight due to its natural anti-viral properties. Health benefits of the elder plant include naturally improving colds, the flu, sinus issues, nerve pain, inflammation, chronic fatigue, allergies, constipation and even cancer. (2) When used within the first 48 hours of onset of symptoms, the extract has actually been found to reduce the duration of the flu with symptoms being relieved on an average of four days earlier. (3) During the 1995 Panama flu epidemic, the government actually employed the use of the elderberry to fight the flu. (Source: https://draxe.com/elderberry/)

The two most common types of elderberries available are the European elderberry (Sambucus nigra) and the American elderberry (Sambucus canadensis). The American elderberry is the wild species often found growing in old fields and meadows. The raw fruit contains a component sambungin which may cause vomiting and severe diarrhea if ingested. The dried fruits are less bitter than fresh.

Here is an easy to make recipe. This is the not same mix as the one I sell, but it will work just as well (For mine, go here: www.lavenderpotions.com/store )

Homemade Elderberry Syrup

INGREDIENTS:

3.5 cups cold water
2 cups organic dried elderberries
1 tablespoon fresh or dried organic ginger root
1 teaspoon organic cinnamon powder or 1 cinnamon stick
1 cup raw honey
DIRECTIONS:

  1. Pour water into saucepan and add elderberries, ginger and cinnamon.
  2. Bring mixture to a boil.
  3. Reduce heat and simmer, covered, for about 40–45 minutes or until the liquid has reduced by about half.
  4. Remove from heat and mash the berries.
  5. Pour through a strainer or cheesecloth into a glass bowl. If you use a cheesecloth, make sure to squeeze out the juice.
  6. Add honey and stir until well-combined.
  7. Bottle final product in a sterilized glass container.

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Clove Essential Oil – so much more than a great smell.

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This has become one of my favorite oils. It has so many properties to it but my fave are the analgesic properties. I use this oil as part of a burn cream mix. I burn my arm regularly on a ceramic curling iron. I’m a klutz!

It must be used with a carrier oil of some type even an unscented lotion if you’re going to use it on your skin.