In progress-Dark Night of the Soul

How many times can one person peel back the metaphorical layers of an onion until you get to the sweet spot?

The answer to that is unknown because each soul has created their own layers by their unique experiences. I have spent most of my life pretending to be someone I am not, so I felt loved and accepted. To continue life in this way is holding me back and stopping me from experiencing the true beauty life has to offer.

I experience emotions deeply, more deeply than I would like for anyone to know. I have developed this armor around me with the ideology of being “strong” because this is what I learned by watching the adults around me as I grew up. Every time I have weathered through a storm someone has always said to me “You’re so strong.” I allowed this to become a badge of honor not realizing the full implication those two little words have had on me. The people who said it meant the words as encouragement and sometimes even in awe of the experiences I have had, yet I still smile. Behind this smile lies a tremendous amount of pain. Pain which I have laughed through, smiled through, judged people through and tried to find my way through the world with it. I have held onto it in the form of weight around my body. I use it as a shield and sword to protect me, so no one sees my true vulnerability. I believed that if I showed vulnerability, I was weak and no one wanted a weak daughter, sister, friend, wife, mother.

Why am I writing about this? I am writing about this because there are many women in the world who feel as I do than anyone even realizes. We have always been “too much” of something. For me, I have always been “too loud”, “too smart for your own good”, “too fat”, “too loud” take your fucking pick, someone has said it. I learned to allow their statements to become my truth. Am I too loud? Perhaps, but when I feel happy, I exude happiness. When I feel sad, it drips off me. When I feel anger, it shoots out of me and slimes people. I am working on controlling the last two as it can affect other people and for that I am deeply apologetic.

I am finally at a point where I realize I have been shielding myself from truly feeling the deep pain I have experienced as a way of self-preservation. I am dropping the shield and sword for small periods of time. I am finding myself crying off and on regularly throughout the day. I need to feel this. Each tear I shed is a memory I no longer need to use to protect myself. I see this as the end of Harry Potter 7 when Voldemort is fighting to stay alive. Each of his horcruxes must be destroyed and this is what I am doing. Each painful memory is a piece of my soul I want to integrate back into myself, so I am whole. In the end… when I have released them all my shield and sword will disintegrate as Voldemort did in the end.

All that will be left is the true me. The woman who deserves to live on this planet in love and happiness helping other women find themselves and integrate their own shadows so they can show up just as beautiful as I will when this is over.

Blessed Be the path of every being who chooses to walk this life on Earth. It is not easy, but there are lessons to learn and so many people to love.

In love and peace…
Shelley

Simple Salt Scrub

Cleaning up your energy doesn’t have to be as difficult as some would have you believe. It’s not this amazingly complicated process. Nor do you have to believe in metaphysics in order for this to work.

What do you need? Three very simple things!

1. Intention – if you believe it’s going to work, it will. It’s just that simple. Set the intention when you’re making this scrub it’s going to cleanse you of the yucky energy you encountered and you’ll be clean when you’re done.

2. Coconut oil – I use  this brand (I do not get paid for this. I just like sharing.)  Click Here: Island Fresh Coconut Oil Coconut oil is good for your skin as it is a natural antibacterial for your skin as well as anti-inflammatory. It’s also a great carrier oil for essential oils if you should decide to add essential oils. The coconut oil also stops your skin from being dried out while using the salt.

3. Salt – There is a reason Witches use salt on the windows of their homes. It’s the same reason it’s “lucky” to toss salt over your shoulder. Salt represents life and all that’s beautiful in it and it’s such a high vibration it bans heavy energy from coming near you. When salt was first mined it was so expensive to mine only the rich could afford it. Egyptians burned salt in order to clear the energy of bad spirits. Salt also represents the element of earth (hence the saying “salt of the earth”). Pachamama, Gaea or Mother Earth is known to transmute bad energy, purifying it and turning it into food for plants and animals. I am not picky about the salt type. I choose to use pickling salt, but you may use whatever you choose. Click Here: Morton Pickling and Canning Salt

You may add essential oils or crushed herbs as a preference, it is not necessary. If using essential oils, I don’t suggest using more than 6 drops per ounce for a 1% dilution.

You can make any size batch you’d like. Keep a 2:1 ratio, coconut oil to salt. A little education with some simple stuff!

Journal it!

My witchcraft teacher has us journal every day as part of our journey as a witch. I am late to the game at the age of 49, however I am re-remembering so much each time I do more. I always say to myself “Oh I’ll do it tonight.” And then it never happens. I’m stuck between the belief of the physical written record and how important that is for generations to come and not having the time to actually physically write with a pen and paper. I mean I am getting older and my hand starts to hurt from writing because let’s face it… my hands have some arthritis and I’m at a computer most of the day already anyway, why not just do a digital version instead? Why indeed. I deserve to take a few moments out of each day to see where I was, what I did and how I got to where I am. I deserve to see my hard work.

What does re-remember mean? It means I am getting flashbacks from previous lives when I do certain things. When I am making products to sell on this website, I don’t do it alone. I have spirit guides who come in and sometimes it’s just a clear channeling process. The product is made and if the spirit guide didn’t write down what was done, I have no clue how it got made. I’ve learned though, sometimes that product doesn’t need to be made again. It was a one-time deal. I’m learning to go with the flow.

The more I give in to the process of what I am supposed to be doing in life I realize I am supposed to be writing more. I often think “Who in the world wants to hear what I have to say?” Then I remember I have grandchildren. If nothing else, I choose to believe that one day they would like to know what was going on with Mimi. How did Mimi get to where she was? Their parents are only going to tell my story from their point of view. I want them to know it from my point of view as well. I want them to know how much I love them long after I’m gone from the physical world.

I also want to learn more about myself and that’s what my teacher calls it: Know Thyself. So I am going to continue writing on my personal blog (www.marialeggett.com) and on this one for my business. The two blogs will contain completely different information because they are for two different purposes.

I hope you will join me and learn something as you go <3

Blessed Be,

Shelley

Missing those we love

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On a daily basis I am reminded of just how much I am never alone. I am loved by so many souls on the other side. It’s hard some day when you can’t reach out and touch them or hear hear voices. I would love to feel the pat of my Granny’s soft hand or the smell of my Papaw’s pipe smoke just one more time.

Close your eyes, calm your mind. Forget about the day you had, forget about the kids hollering or your spousal argument. Picture peace, happiness, love and whatever vision is a happy place for you. For me it’s a few things and will depend on what I’m trying to do. The sound of the ocean moving and seagulls in the air flying are pure peace to me and bring me harmony. I focus on those things to relax my body and when my body is relaxed, I ask them if they have a message for me. Sometimes I will hear in my mind “I love you” and sometimes they give me an old happy memory. Each person’s experience will differ.

Congratulations you just meditated 🙂

Daily Reading for 12-07-2016

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Daily Reading for 12-07-2016

Today I pulled a card from Keepers of the Light oracle cards. I received the Joan of Arc card and how beautiful is this message.

Joan of Arc teaches us to stand up for what we believe in and voice our truth. She’s a wonderful guide for all lightworkers to call upon for help. She will help you realize you do not need to defend your beliefs. You don’t need justification from others to know you are able to stand in your truth, honest and loving. She will help you to focus on being the human your higher self already knows you can be. Share your wisdom. Your story will inspire someone else. Allow your experiences to become teaching lessons and turn them into light and love and healing messages for others.

Just for today: I am a light worker on a mission helping others to heal. I have wisdom to share and love to give. #joanofarc #archangels #dailyreading #lavenderpotions #metaphysical #angelcards #angelintuitve #healingheart #helpfulperson #yoga #meditation #higherconsciousness #highervibration #higherself #loveyourself #loveoneanother