Veiled

As I sat down to write this post I used the thesaurus to look up the word invisible.  I started writing this post with some details about my life but I’m not really convinced the story matters. We’ve all got our own shit to deal with and by writing it out just causes comparison or

As I sat down to write this post I used the thesaurus to look up the word invisible. 

I started writing this post with some details about my life but I’m not really convinced the story matters. We’ve all got our own shit to deal with and by writing it out just causes comparison or maybe that’s just me. Whenever I read someone else’s story my mind immediately goes to either “Damn I didn’t have that bad” or “Damn I had it worse.” Why? Why must we compare ourselves? I’m so fucking over the comparison game. I’ve been hurt, you’ve probably been hurt and somewhere along the way we’ve also hurt other people. No one is perfect and we’ve all made mistakes.

I am currently struggling with letting go of the pain of my childhood. I’ve figured out the root of the problem and I know it has to go, but….I’ve held onto it as a security blanket for so long and I’m not sure how to exist in the world without it. Who am I if I am not the secretly tortured human being with a difficult past? Who am I if I don’t have a reason to blame my piss poor behavior on someone else?

I have come to realization I am scared to be whole. I am downright terrified of becoming everything I’ve ever wanted to be because it would mean I’d be completely responsible for the outcome of my life. Imagine that.

Accountability.

I have no issue with taking accountability at work when I screw up. Why is this so damn hard? My story isn’t me. It’s just a story about how I see my life. If I continue to live in the past, there is no room for an improved me in the future. Hell, I won’t have a future. I’m allowing this pain to swallow me whole and keep me veiled from happiness. Lately, I wake up every day hoping life will be better and by the time I come home, I find a way to remind myself I am unwanted by my parents, my children, my friends. Not all of them actually tell me this, it’s just how my brain chooses to believe it. I allow old stories to creep in and become unsurmountable mountains when I know damn well they aren’t. It’s just my process for now and I’m sharing it in case this is happening to anyone else. I know my husband loves me but he has no idea how to deal with me when this washes over me. I have both empathy and anger at him for this. Clearly I let the anger go because how is he supposed to know what to do? I can assure you, I did not come with a manual.

I am more than a woman with a sad story.

But… Who Am I?

Blessed Be,
Shelley

Elderberry studies show antiviral/antibacterial against flu and strep

Elderberry has been well-known and used regularly among the “hippie mom” group for as long as people can remember. The majority of people are now beginning to hear about Elderberry and its anti-bacterial and anti-viral uses. If you don’t want to do all of the Google research to find out about the medical studies which

Elderberry has been well-known and used regularly among the “hippie mom” group for as long as people can remember. The majority of people are now beginning to hear about Elderberry and its anti-bacterial and anti-viral uses. If you don’t want to do all of the Google research to find out about the medical studies which have been published, please allow me to help you by putting a few articles in one place. I will preface all of this information with I am not a medical professional. I do believe there is a beautiful balance between Eastern and Western medicine.

This first study (link here) shows Elderberry flavonoids bind to the H1N1 virus and block their ability to attach themselves to the host cells. Published Phytochemistry. 2009 Jul;

In this study (link here), 60 people with flu-like symptoms took 15 milliliters (ml) of elderberry syrup four times a day. Their symptoms improved 4 days before the people who took a placebo. J Int Med Res. 2004 Mar-Apr

Supplementation with elderberry was found to substantially reduce upper respiratory symptoms in this study (link here). Complement Ther Med. 2019 Feb

In another study (link here), it was shown elderberry has the ability to not only fight strep and influenza, but may also inhibit it. BMC Complement Altern Med. 2011

A double-blind, randomized control trial looked at whether elderberry extract could prevent people from experiencing cold-like symptoms after traveling on an airplane. Nutrients. 2016 Apr

This last article reminds us that in 400 BCE, Hippocrates referred to the elder tree as his “medicine chest.” Other noted classical healers, including Theophrastus, Dioscorides and Galen, regarded the elder as one of nature’s greatest healing plants. This plant has been used for over 2,000 years! Mother Earth also known as Gaea (Gaia)  makes so many of her own beautiful medications and only in recent times (within the last 100 years) have we stopped looking to her to help us recover.

Use coupon code HIPPIEMOM to get 20% off packets of Pre-Packaged Herbs for Elderberry Syrup containing antiviral, antibacterial and cough suppressant herbs. To see a video on how to make it yourself, YouTube – How To Make Elderberry Syrup.